I had a bad day and ...a bad night . I 'm not going to say much beyond that, because, well, that's just not smart for anyone . I went to bed , hoping that sleep would take the bad day away. But as I am laying there, trying to sleep, my mind keeps spinning. And I keep thinking about all the other bad days I've had . The times when I opened my mouth when I shoudn't have, the other times when I opened my mouth when I shoudn't have. Not because I was wrong, but because anyone just couldn't take what a woman like me had to say.
So I am laying there, wishing for sleep, hoping for sleep, praying for sleep, to take away the bad day. Because I am sick of thinking about all the other bad days. I wish I had not had a bad day today. I wish I could just go to sleep.
"For the longest time I had the mindset of "People Always Leave" and because of having that mindset I never really let people into my life. I still have that tendency to always be on my guard, but having that mindset constantly is not really healthy. Not everyone leaves. Some people actually stay and help you grow as a person. They call you out on things that you need to be called out on and that shapes your character."